Your LOVE is a song..

Things I Need To Do..

2011-09-05T03:48:00.000-07:00

Stop watching PORN!
Get closer to God
Pray more often
Do my daily devotions
Get tough
Learn martial arts
Protect Joy
Study hard
Score my SPM
Become a Pilot
Marry Joy

My True Love..

2011-09-05T03:37:00.000-07:00

It's already 3 months! : D

04.06.11

We talked for 5 hours straight

and i only slept an hour before going to church.

But it was worth it :)

I love her so much

and it would tear me apart if i lose her..

She's the one i am meant to be with.

The one that keeps me in check

and the one that helps me see things clearer.

I thank God he put her in my life..

She is my guardian angel

and I will always be grateful to God for her.

I love you my shemelly baby

Mmuahxx! :*

Baby you light up my world like nobody else..

2011-08-25T11:17:00.000-07:00

Baby,

I love you..

you're my one and only girl..

Even if i have numerous female friends.

They are not you..

You have no idea how much i love you..

I can't find the strength to wrong against you.

I can't find the strength to leave you..

My love for you is too much for me to handle..

Therefore i need you in my life so i can share it with you..

You and me are unique in our own way..

I like sweet and you like spicy and salty..

I kinda like bieber and you hate bieber.

that's what makes us so compatible..

Opposites attracts right?

I love you baby,

Always and Forever..

: )

Kak Manisah...

2011-07-14T07:58:00.000-07:00

This is my family..

Although she was paid to take care of us,

she did it with such grace.

As much as we bullied her, talk back at her, fight with her.

We loved each other.

She covered for me when i went out with friends,

took care of me when i was sick,

comforted me when i got canning or the belt from my dad or grandfather

and

shared personal stuff with one another.

She was the mother i never had.

I love her so much! : /

Aunty, thank you for being there beside me whenever

I needed you.

thank you for being the shoulder i could cry on.

thank you for being my best friend when i was lonely.

thank you for keeping my secrets from anyone.

thank you for the awesome food you use to cook for us.

thank you for keeping up with our bad ass attitudes,

and selfish wants.

but most of all,

thank you for being our "mom".

I know you're in heaven now,

cause otherwise

all the non-sense you've tolerated over the past 13 years

will be a total waste.

May God bring happiness to your family

and may you rest in peace : )

Me and You : )

2011-06-21T01:08:00.000-07:00

Me playing Friday is forever by we the kings

2011-06-20T00:49:00.000-07:00

2011-06-18T22:10:00.000-07:00

No matter

how far apart we are

from each other.

My heart will always be yours

to keep <3

(Official Music) Eminem Royce Da 5'9 feat. Bruno Mars - Lighters (Bad Me...

2011-06-17T19:34:00.000-07:00

2011-06-17T19:19:00.001-07:00

Damn, my face looks like CRAP!!!!!!

2011-06-17T04:55:00.000-07:00

Please

don't leave me :'(

Chris Brown - Next 2 You ft. Justin Bieber

2011-06-17T01:57:00.000-07:00

2011-06-15T06:07:00.000-07:00

I Hate It

When I Get A Girlfriend

and can't spend time with her.

Jealousy

2011-06-07T12:41:00.000-07:00

I might get jealous sometimes,

So what?

I get jealous because I know

I'm not the best guy in the world,

I know I can't offer things your heart deeply desires,

and I know that there is always

someone that can snatch you away from me.

I get jealous because

I want you to always be by my side,

and to always be mine

cause you are the proof that God has blessed me with love : )

My Dream

2011-06-07T09:12:00.000-07:00

My dream is to be a very successful Pilot in M.A.S, have a beautiful wife, 3/4 kids, grow old with my wife, have grand kids, live a life dedicated to Jesus, and die knowing that I've secured my spot next to God all mighty. I love travelling, I love to see the historic cities of the world, I would love to visit all 7 wonders of the world and i would love to bring my family on free trips around the world. I want a enormous house with a gym, swimming pool, a music room, a library where my kids can study in and a tv room for the family to enjoy our time together. I imagine a perfect life but getting there is a hard part. I'm extremely lazy and hate studying. So i plan to change and be a hard working guy. Hopefully I'll be able to achieve it.

~THE END~

2011-06-07T08:57:00.000-07:00

I would shout, scream, yell,

paste, drawn, paint, present,

blog, broadcast, print, sing, dance,

tumblr, write, and play my love

for you.

because I believe that no matter

what obstacles may come in our way.

I vow to find a way to tackle it

head on

with you right by my side. :)

Baby, I'm yours

2011-06-04T03:50:00.000-07:00

040611 <3

I promise to never leave you,

take care of your heart the best i can,

give you teddy bear hugs when you're sad,

kiss you to make you smile,

and to love you always ; )

J <3 J

2011-06-02T07:59:00.000-07:00

I Gonna Bite & Kiss You

muax! ;)

Always be my baby ;)

2011-06-02T03:49:00.000-07:00

The teddy bear is me and the beautiful girl kissing it is Joy : )

I love her more than any other girl i have ever know

(beside's the girls from my family of course)

I love the way she laughs, talks, walks, moves, swings her hair from left to right.

So basically I love everything about her.

I'm THE luckiest guy in the world.

I'm literally on cloud 9 right now.

She brings joy to my day every time we talk/ text : ) ( Ironic huh?)

We made each other promises that i hope we both will keep.

I LOVE YOU DEAR!!!! <3

I'm yours ; )

I Love You in 50 languages

2011-05-31T02:49:00.000-07:00

1. I love you in Bulgarian – Obicham te ;

2. in Belarusian – Ya tabe kahayu ;

3. in Bangla – Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi ;

4. in Cantonese Chinese – Ngo oiy ney a ;

5. I love you in Catalan – T`estimo ;

6. in Cheyenne – Ne mohotatse ;

7. in Chichewa – Ndimakukonda ;

8. in Creole – Mi aime jou ;

9. in Croatian – Volim te ;

10. I love you in Czech – Miluji te ;

11. in Danish – Jeg elsker dig ;

12. in Dutch - Ik hou van jou ;

13. in Esperanto – Mi amas vin ;

14. in Estonian – Ma armastan sind ;

15. I love you in Ethiopian – Afgreki` ;

16. in Farsi – Doset daram ;

17. in Filipino – Mahal kita ;

18. in Finnish –Mina rakastan sinua ;

19. in French – Je t`aime/ Je t`adore ;

20. I love you in German – Ich liebe dich ;

21. in Greek – S`agapau ;

22. in Gujarati – Hoo thunay prem karoo choo ;

23. in Hawaiian – Aloha wau ia oi ;

24. in Hebrew – Ani ohev otah (to female) and Ani ohev et otha (to male) ;

25. I love you in Hindi – Hum tumhe pyar karte hae ;

26. in Hmong – Kuv hlub koj ;

27. in Hopi – Nu` umi unangwa`ta ;

28. in Hungarn – Szeretlek ;

29. in Icelansic – Eg elska tig ;

30. in Indonesian – Saya cinta padamu ;

31. in Irish – Taim i`ngra leat ;

32. in Italian – Ti amo ;

33. I love you in Japanese – Aishiteru ;

34. in Kannada – Naanu ninna preetisuttene ;

35. in Korean – Sarang heyo ;

36. in Latin – Te amo ;

37. in Latvian – Es tevi miilu ;

38. in Malay – Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu ;

39. in Mandarin Chinese – Wo ai ni ;

40. in Navaho – Ayor anosh`ni ;

41. in Norwegian – Jeg elsker dek ;

42. in Persian – Doo-set daaram ;

43. in Pig Latin – Lay ovlay ouyay ;

44. in Polish – Kocham Ciebie ;

45. in Portuguese – Eu tea mo ;

46. in Romanian – Te ubesk ;

47. in Russian – Ya tebya liubliu ;

48. I love you in Serbian – Volim te ;

49. in Slovenian – Ljubim te ;

50. in Spanish – Te quiero / Te amo .

2011-05-06T22:53:00.000-07:00

"Break Up" is only found when you're in a relationship,

But I doesn't exist when

you're "special friends" with the someone you love.

The Heart Thief

2011-05-05T20:20:00.000-07:00

Name: Chrislyn Joy

Age: 14

Birthday: 5.5.97

Race: Sarawak-ian

Religion: Christian

Honest, Loving, Sweet, Picky, Adventuress, Tough,

Smart, Fun, and Beautiful.

Maybe she is not like any other girl

that i've dated or liked

but hey, she makes me happy.

I think i'm in love with her.

Its insane how fast she got my heart.

Argh!!!!!!

So this is to all the girls who broke my heart before

How Guys Think! (For Girls) :D

2011-05-03T04:16:00.000-07:00

1. Guys dont actually like sluts as much as they say they do, even though they have sex with them!
2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" are two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile, it’s usually more important than the body.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to; if a guy knows a girl likes him but doesn’t like her… he still wants to be the only guy she talks to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend, unless it’s negative, then it’s cool
11. Guys get jealous very easily, even if they don’t show it.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!... ugh... nevermind..." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like. If a guy seems cool around girls, just see how he acts in front of the girl he really likes.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves if you just ask.

18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice unless he asks for it.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. Poking, light pushing, blocking your way and random high 5’s are tell tell signs.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything if you don’t tell them not to.

24. Guys use words like buff or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you, if he uses it to describe other girls, he probably just wants to sound sweet in front of you, and therefore likes you.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys love it when girls wear their clothes (jacket, hat, etc) especially if it’s a girl they like, they will often let them wear it in unreasonable circumstances…like the pouring rain.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible, if you like a guy, just tell him, they’ll usually be flattered. If there is something wrong with your relationship, just tell him, if hes a nice guy he’ll do his best to fix the problem.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about arses and boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience, your NEVER going to meet Mr. Darcy.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and talk to me."

37. Guys don't really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than 3 seconds, he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day. `now thats something i dont hear everyday ;p

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

51. Not all guys are dickheads. Just because ONE is doesnt mean he represents ALL of us. Quit assuming.

52. We don't like girls who are too skinny.

53. We love it when girls talk about their boobs.

54. Always make sure you know what kind of stuff you're getting into before making out with a guy...like whether it's a one time deal or not...

55. Believe it or not shy guys are the easiest to talk to, it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticabley tell them about yours.

56. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually.

57. When a guy doesn’t touch you flirtily alot, but smiles at you a lot and makes eye contact a lot, its probably because he likes you and feels weird about touching you…but really wants to.

58. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

59. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it... it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

60. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

61. If a guy tells you to dump your boyfriend, he's being a twat, if he tells you that there is the possibility of finding someone else (HIM) if you do dump him, he probably likes you and just wants to see you happy.

62. No matter how much they complain (if they do), guys actually like it when girls lean on them.

63. Guys relate everything a lot of things to sex... a joke, a slip of the tongue, a giggle, a yawn, a stretch, whatever...its stupid but true.

64. If you add a guy on myspace or Facebook and you don't know him...chances are he'll assume its because you're attracted to him.

65. If a guy acts like a dick sometimes and doesnt trust you, it might be because he has been badly hurt in the past and is afraid to open up again.

66. Just because a guy isn't holding/kissing you, doesnt mean he doesn't want to, you might just need to initiate it.

67. All guys want to make you happy (unless they're pricks), some just don't know how...so help them out.

68. Most guys just naturally prefer a girl with a bit of curve.

69. Guys are just as self conscious and insecure as girls, ;we also fear rejection, the guy who really likes you is the one who will never dare say so.

70. Boys liked to be talked to. A guy will feel more comfortable around a girl if the girl starts talking to them.

71. The way a girl moves her body can easily be much sexier than anything she says or does.

72. Girls: when you slow down with your boyfriend, make sure you give a damn good reason or we feel like its our fault because we can't comprehend that you really just want to slow down.

73. Every guy has a 'neeky' side of him. Whether it be playin games, watching movies, or playing football, but don't make fun of him if you don't like it, unless it's something you both find funny, otherwise just try and learn to like it. Don't try to change him. If he's constantly ignoring you for that thing, tell him, he'll probably try and do it less.

74. Guys will always check out other girls, even if we make it less obvious when we're around you, it does not mean we're considering leaving you for the girl on the bus. It just comes to us without thinking, so don't freak out when a guy looks at another girl. It's just nature, and we know you were oggling at the cute guy that just walked passed. And hey, guys can have female friends just like girls can have male friends, just because he gets a text from a girl does not mean he is cheating on you. But if this does make things awkward, talk about it.

75. NEVER EVER kick a guy in the balls...seriously. Not even in a fight (play or real) or argument, you can't imagine how much that hurts (don't bring up giving birth because you know it's different). The slightest kick can often have an excruciating delayed reaction...so yeah...just don't do it...please.

76. When a guy is talkin to a girl, his gut instinct is to make her laugh. Whether he is good at this or not, he will try. As a result boys can sometimes appear immature or weird when you first meet them, but they're probably just nervous so give them time and get to know them.

77. At some point a guy will try to play fight with you. There are two reasons for this:
a) Guys like to fight and show you how strong they are.
b) It gives them an excuse to touch you.

78. It is very sexy and appealing for a girl to wear a guy's boxers and shirt. That's all. We don't know why that is, but it just is.

79. Guys dont like girls who don't make an effort. If he travels four hours just to see you for three, appreciate it and don't admit you wouldn't do the same, half the time we wouldn't expect you to anyway!

80. Guys have standards for what type of girl they want to have. Every girl is the perfect girl for somebody.

81. Guys don't like it when girls amplify things. It's very annoying.

82. Even the coolest guys, worry a lot about how they come across, they are probably trying very hard to seem so cool. So don't undermine or mock a guy you like or are friends with, he might not burst into tears but it does not do wonders for his self-esteem. And if you do take the piss, make it fairly clear your joking, it will let the guy know you dont dislike him, you have a sense of humour, and its ok for him to have a come back.

83. If a guy is completely, 100% honest with you about things he's not to sure/proud of, be grateful, because it can be pretty rare.

84. Although we do relate many things to sex, not everything is literally sexual, they like just being close to you too.

85. Guys only like sluts when they're single, as soon as their in a relationship, its just annoying.

86. Guys will always be nervous about giving girls presents they like, no matter how close to or comfortabke they are around the girl. Your opinion is just too important to him.

87. Guys are often terrified of a girl they like too much. The way some girls make you feel makes it impossible for you to function, the same reason a lot of guys persue strictly physical relationships. LOL so now we're paralizing guys?

88. Guys may not know how to handle a relationship, we admit, we're not the greatest nor the smartest at doing things right. But girls are definitely not any better, so please don't argue with us and make it seem like you know how things are supposed to be and your ways are right. It may seem logical, but frankly, it always isn't.

89. Guys love anything you wear. Really. Don't continuously ask them how you look every time you wear something.

90. THE NUMBER ONE RULE: Don't rub the lamp if you don't want the genie to come out

Feelings.

2011-04-16T22:51:00.000-07:00

When we're in a relationship,

our feelings are the most important.

We must think of your partners feelings before yours.

Those who can't give a shit bout you,

either has personal problems or is a jackass and doesn't deserve you.

Bubble Wrap - McFly

2011-04-15T03:53:00.000-07:00

I wish I could Bubble Wrap my heart,
In case I fall and break apart,
I'm not God, I can't change the stars,
And I don't know if there's life on Mars,
But I know you're hurt,
People that you love and those who care for you,
I want nothing to do with the things you're going through.

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm
A broken man who's finally realised.
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

I'm a little dazed and confused,
Life's a bitch and so are you.
All my days have turned into nights,
'Cause living without, without, without you in my life.
And you wrote the book on how to be a liar,
And lose all your friends,
Did I mean nothing at all?
Was I just another ghost that's been in your bed?

'Cause this is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm
A broken man who's finally realised.
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

Yeah!
Turn on the radio honey,
'Cause every single sad song you'll be able to relate!
This one I dedicate.
Whoa oh!
Don't get all emotional baby,
You can never talk to me, you're unable to communicate!

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm
A broken man who's finally realised...

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm
A broken man who's finally realised.
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

This is goodbye.

I wish I could bubble wrap my heart.

2011-04-13T02:49:00.000-07:00

There is this girl in school,

she has the face, accent, hair and body.

She is two years younger than me.

I have no idea whether I should pursue her or not.

Everyone says that I'm a good match with her.

But there is this other dude who i think really likes her or has really given up on her.

Maybe I should give love a few more tries.

After all I'm still young.

Farewell :'(

2011-04-11T04:06:00.000-07:00

This is our loyal maid for the past 12-13 years.

She came into our lives when i was just about three years of age.

She has taken care of us

no matter how naughty we were to here,

no matter how much pain we caused her

how much burden we have put on her.

We have shared some happy times, sad times, and many more.

We've also shared secrets with each other like,

who was my first crush,

my first girlfriend,

and other stuff i forgot.

Now, she has colon cancer.

it started almost 3-4 years ago a few months before my grandfather

passed away.

Even in her time of pain she took amazing care of us.

We are blessed to have her in our lives.

I am so glad that I had a chance to meet her.

Not to mention, she even taught me the indon meaning of Goblok.

hahaha.

She has become our bestfriend.

I can't express how much appreciation i have for you,

I Love you Aunty Manisah.

May God Bless You Always :)

2011-04-02T07:29:00.000-07:00

One day you will seek love
and be sorry that you threw mine away.

2011-03-29T03:21:00.000-07:00

I'll Call You B

and You!

can call me Boo ; )

Non-existent.

2011-03-29T03:14:00.000-07:00

From this very moment,

I never knew you,

I've never seen you,

and

you've been wiped clean of my mind.

You told him,

I meant nothing to you.

So you don't have anything to worry bout,

you mean nothing to me too.

I have nothing of yours anymore,

I deleted all my post bout us,

your pictures and everything that reminds me of you.

So don't come to me when no one else wants to talk to you anymore

I won't be the shoulder you want to cry on.

Go find a pile of manure to cry on,

its way softer.

...

2011-03-11T14:59:00.000-08:00

Baby, everything i have is yours,

you'll never go cold or hungry,

I'll be there when you're insecure,

let you know your always lovely girl.

Chris Brown ft JB

Yana! Happy Birthday! :D

2011-03-07T00:25:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Yana!

Thank you for all the things you have helped me with like,

add math, jiha, and many more.

and most importantly thanks for tolerating me.

I can be an ass sometimes but hey!

every guy can be an ass sometimes.

I hardly know you but you are like one of my closest friends in school : D

So thanks you and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!!

don't touching2 ya, if i ajek you.

Gurau je. : D

My Ipod!

2011-02-25T22:05:00.000-08:00

MY IPOD!!!!

Woohoo!!

: D

Ipod nano!!!!

2011-02-25T18:17:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna buy this man!!!

I need my music to chill so this is like my best friend man.

worth my RM550 bucks.

My Phone!!!

2011-02-25T18:11:00.000-08:00

My phone got STOLEN!!!

I was the first time and I just was shocked that i didn't know what to do

and just watched him ride away.

I have no music, pictures, contacts.

there are pictures there that help me go through hard times

for example,

jiha's picture.

every time i feel down i see her picture and

i remember the awesome times we had. : /

and now, i have no more phone so

her pictures are just gone.

Baby, Baby Blue Eye's

2011-02-19T00:24:00.000-08:00

Things that influence stress among teens.

2010-09-17T10:41:00.000-07:00

There is so many influnces of stress in an average teenagers life but out of all the influences of stress, there is one main influence which is usually disguised with our love for them and that main reasons are parents! We all know they mean well but nagging us to study every second of the day won't help bring out our true potential and if exams are involved, RESULTS! A teacher told me that our parents nag us for two reasons. First, its because parents were born to nag their children out of their mind. Second, its because the haven't a clue what your doing when your in your room. When we study in our room, its basically just us and books but in my case, music, books and me. In my family, my parents only see me when i'm not studying but when I do, they are either a sleep or on the com. Its completely frustrating when your parents gives you a lecture about you not studying enough when you studying till your feels like exploding. I literally studied until I had a major headache and still I was forced to study. In this time of day, new generations don't take in nagging quite well as the older generation once did. Teens of this generation rebel when we get nagged, talk back to parents, don't study when they are suppose to. For all we know, our parents might have done the same things we are doing now. So parents, we do study you just have to get off the com walk to our rooms and see up doing it! And PLEASE STOP NAGGING US!!!

Kristen's writings.

2010-07-02T03:30:00.000-07:00

"He's not perfect. You aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn't going to quote poetry, he's not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you apart of him that he knows you could break. Don't hurt him, don't change him and don't expect more that he can give. Don't analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don't exist, but there's always one guy that is perfect for you."

- So, to whoever you are, this goes out to you.

I am supporting this statement all the way!

but i will quote poetry to girls(only the one's i go for)

at times :)

hehe

-

2010-06-28T00:47:00.000-07:00

You told me that you wouldn't break my heart

and you will keep it safe,

but

you broke it at the end,

and now there's nothing to love with.

Mother's Day.

2010-05-08T06:23:00.000-07:00

Mother's day

is a time to celebrate mothers

for their hard work in raising us to be

who we were meant to be.

It's also a day of showing love to your

to her and giving of presents, hugs, kisses on the cheeks

and

bringing her for lunch or dinner

in a fancy restaurant with the whole family.

And not to mention a day to make up for the trouble we have caused them.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

to all the mothers in the world.

To: my mother and grandmother.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

mum and grandma

I'm sorry for all the troubles i have cause you two

and

thank you for always being there for me when i got in trouble.

I Love you guys even though i don't say it often

i'll still do love you guys :)

JOHN LIM is 15!!

2010-04-04T05:58:00.000-07:00

HAPPY "BELATED" BIRTHDAY BRO!!

hope you had an awesome time

with the insane gang.

and and..

urm!!!

hope you enjoyed getting saboed by me and jedida.

HAAHA!!!

hope you this day will be stuck in your head for years to come.

and may there be a better one next year.

God bless bro!

A time to think.

2010-03-30T16:15:00.000-07:00

A time to think in the rain

is the best way to let loose.

I like water and fire,

i love playing with those two elements.

i feel at ease with water

and

angry with fire.

today it rained and i walked back in the rain

so i was freaking wet.

since i was wet and alone walking home,

i thought some stuff over and

i kinda let go on alot of stuff

in that short period of time.

when i got home i cleaned up my soaking wet bag,

took my set of house keys,

and headed to the swimming pool where i could do my extra thinking

over troubled things in life.

without a change of clothing,

i took off my wet shirt and jumped into the pool.

i was trying to sink to the bottom of the pool

like in percy jackson the movie.

but i couldn't,

so i decided to do a few laps and think things through.

one thing struck me,

out off every minute of the day

out of church, out with church friends, or on a mission trip,

i have never done anything good to please God.

this is really heart breaking.

there are only a few which is considered to be

God pleasing.

one of it is,

I drew word's saying

"Malaysia belongs to JESUS!"

after i did that i thought to myself,

when is teacher coming up to me and asking me about this?

when can i preach Gods word to the teacher?

all this was rushing into my head.

after i drew it,

all i wanted to do was

rip the paper into pieces.

Coz my school isn't the school which actually looks up to Christians as good people.

They think that all Christians are somewhat bad.

So i hope that my drawing will change their mind set.

Alarice!

2010-03-16T20:33:00.000-07:00

Awesome singer man!!!

Must listen!

Percy Jackson!!

2010-03-16T17:59:00.000-07:00

PERCY JACKSON ROCKS!!!!

This movie has freaking awesome CGI's man..

The part where you see hell

is kinda scary

when know you don't actually

do everything good in life.

HMM!!

Anyways the movie is still awesome

First Sight!

2010-03-15T04:20:00.000-07:00

The very first time i saw you,

My icy cold heart melted away.

And now,

My heart is warm just for you!

Yahoo!!!

2010-03-13T02:33:00.000-08:00

YAY YAY YAY!!

I'm finally going out

somewhere besides being stuck at home =D

i'll the pics later =D

HEHEH!

PIck ME!!

2010-03-07T05:29:00.000-08:00

Woah oh yeah
(Woah oh yeah)
Eh Eh
Woah oh oh yeah
You're the finest girl I've ever seen
And I wanted you to know this
That every guy you meet winds up catching feelings for ya
You can have any of 'em
You can take your pick
But you need to check with me
Girl I promise I'm legit, yeah
Yes we'll be going to the movies
In the theater holding hands
I'll walk you home from school
I'll walk you to your classes
Playing my 360 yes you'll be my best friend
But most of all baby doll you'll be my love love love

You should be pick me
So tell me can you dig it
I'm everything you need girl
So tell me can you dig it
I'll always be your number one number one fan (dig that)
And I should be your one and only man
You should pick me
So tell me can you dig it
Think of how good it could be girl
So tell me can you dig it
I'll always be your number one number one fan(dig that)
And I should be your one and only man
You should pick me

Yeah, you should pick me girl

You're my favorite part of the day
And every morning I look forward to me seeing your face
I just need to see it some more
Baby I'm the kind of guy who can appreciate a girl as
amazing as you
So you gotta be my baby yeah
Cause' we'll already be chillin' at the beach
I'll take you on a cruise, watch sun set while we eat
You can anything you want girl I'll be your best friend
But most of all baby doll you'll be my love love love

You should be pick me
So tell me can you dig it
I'm everything you need girl
So tell me can you dig it
I'll always be your number one number one fan (dig that)
And I should be your one and only man
You should pick me
So tell me can you dig it
Think of how good it could be girl
So tell me can you dig it
I'll always be your number one number one fan (dig that)
And I should be your one and only man
You should pick me

You should pick the guy that makes you happy
He could fly you somethin'
Pick the one that's got swagger
Pick the one that makes you laugh
The one that always got your back
Who would rather die
Than make you sad

That's why you should pick me
So tell me can you dig it
I'm everything you need girl
So tell me can you dig it
I'll always be your number one number one fan (dig that)
And I should be your one and only man

You should pick me
So tell me can you dig it
Think of how it could be girl
So tell can you dig it
I'll always be your number one number one fan (dig that)
And i should be your one and only man
You should pick me

You should pick me
(the real crystal truth)

Woah oh yeah
(Woah oh oh yeah)
Eh Eh
Woah oh oh yeah

People I Hate!

2010-03-07T00:52:00.000-08:00

The people i HATE!!

1. People who think they are so f**king cool

until a point they judge their best friends

for being imperfect.

2.Stuck up ass hole's, who makes other lives miserable.

3. F**KING Hypocrites!

4. People who think they are so Holy, but ended the total opposite of Holy.

5. "Best Friends" who treats you like crap.

6. those who have their heads up in the clouds

when the best things to do

is to be down to earth..

7. those who boast alot!!!

Screw these kind off people man!!!

these is only for guys

not girls..

Sports day / Outing.. =D

2010-03-06T02:01:00.000-08:00

I haven't updated in a while.

So enjoy =D

Today,

I had SPORTS DAY!!!

and its so boring!!

So me and my sister's brought a change of clothing

to go out to Sungai Wang..

And by 9.30

we left school and headed to the LRT station..

At the LRT station we changed clothes except for me

because, i changed in school.. =D

So after we changed we bought the tickets to Sungai Wang,

and waited at the platform.

While we were waiting,

my friend is smoking his cigarette

and me, sisters and their friend

were talking about drinking and clubbing..

=D hehe

So when the train arrived we hoped on it

and

went to Dang Wangi station.

at Dang wangi we walked to a monorail station

and took a train to BB (Bukit Bintang) station.

so when we got off we walked to SUNGAI WANG!!!!!

i somehow FORGOT to bring money.

HEHE!!

so my sister payed for my tickets and food..

The BEST part about today was

the time me and my friend went to MCD

and we ordered burgers ONLY!!

But when we got our food,

we didn't only get burgers but we also had fries and drinks..

And we only payed for the burgers.

That was such a blessing man..

HAHA!!

when the cashier placed my food on the counter,

and i saw drinks and fries on it,

i was like "this isn't my order",

then the cashier whispered "Nevermind, Just take it."

and she smiled..

And my face immediately brighten up

and i just said

"THANK YOU!!"

with a huge smile.

haha.. i really thank GOD for today!

but too bad Tharini couldn't make it..

anyways that was my day..

i'm very happy now!!

=DD

hehe

2010-02-18T17:45:00.000-08:00

I am literally SCREWED!!!

i honestly believe that friendship's

will bring me

Happiness,

but in this case,

it is giving me happiness and sadness..

but i still don't wanna loose a friend..

So this is a problem that i will have to surrender up to God

and do the best i can to resolve it..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

2010-02-12T23:07:00.000-08:00

I know

Chines New Year

is tomorrow but

since i might not be able to

go online,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

i wish you all

a prosperous and joyful

year ahead..

First time!!!

2010-02-11T15:56:00.001-08:00

I RAN AWAY FROM

SCHOOL!!!!

i'm sweating like crazy right now..

i'm not proud of myself okay!!

Dedication to jaclyn wong!!

2010-02-09T06:56:00.000-08:00

So this post is dedicated

to an awesome soul.

Jaclyn Wong,

I thank God for bringing you into

my life,

you have supported me

and encourage me through

quite a number of stuff..

even though

after everything i've said

you still remained my dearest close friend

and i will always cherish that,

i hope you will too..

And the promises i made you

will never be broken as long as i live,

hope you feel the same way

i feel about the promises

we made..

So i thank you for the support

and

kind words of encouragement

to boost my spirit up..

Thanks to you,

i don't have a reason to

be sad or emo anymore..

you have been an awesome friend

through out everything,

and you should have received an award

for it..

seriously,

some one should created a trophy

for the worlds greatest best friend ever..

haha.

that will be super awesome man..

i can't say anything else

but awesome right now,

So your awesome x(times) infinity..

you are that awesome..

I pray that you'll one

meet a guy who would

protect you with his life and

love you

deeper than the

deepest sea..

coz I'm grateful for the support you have given me..

and i intend to repay the favor..

i hope you'll let me

if you dont

i can't stop you from doing anything anyways..

So have a great year,

just pray it will be better than last year okay..

Over it..

2010-02-07T02:04:00.000-08:00

I'm over it,

thanks to those supporting words,

I'm able to stand on my two feet,

raise my head high

and

move forward..

thanks to those words of encouragement,

I'll be able to face the facts

from now on..

Thanks for being calm with

everything i said,

no matter how uncomfortable it was.

thank you for copping up

with me,

even though you knew

i have feelings for you..

I don't want to loose

this friendship,

and

i hope you wont want to

either.

First Dance!!

2010-02-05T21:55:00.001-08:00

Usher: It's your chance take her hand to the floor
Girl if you see something you like then let 'em know
Cuz you only got one chance
For your first dance
So take advantage of the slow down
Yeah man

Justin: I like to close my eyes
And see me and you at the prom
We've both been waiting so long
For this day to come
Now that its here
Let's make it special

(I can't deny)
There's so many thoughts in my mind
The DJ's playing my favorite song
Ain't no chaperones
This could be the night of your dreams

CHORUS:
Only if you give give the first dance to me
Girl I promise I'll be gentle
But we gotta do it slowly
If you give give the first dance to me
I'm gon' cherish every moment
Cuz it only happens once once in a lifetime

I couldn't ask for more
We're rocking back and forth
Under the disco ball
We're the only ones on the floor

(Ican't deny)
There's so many thought in my mind
The DJ's playing my favorite song
Now we're all alone
Here's the oppurtunity

Only if you give give the first dance to me
Girl I promise I'll be gentle
But we gotta do it slowly
If you give give the first dance to me
I'm gon' cherish every moment
Cuz it only happens once once in a lifetime

Everybody says that we look cute together
Let's make this a night the two of us remember
No teachers around to see us dancing close
I'm telling you our parents will never know
Before the lights go up
And the music turns off
That's the perfect time for me to taste your lipgloss
Got your glass slippers in my hand right here
We'll make it before the clock strikes nine

If you just give give the first dance to me
Girl I promise I'll be gentle
But we gotta do it slowly
If you give give the first dance to me
I'm gon' cherish every moment
Cuz it only happens once once in a lifetime

(Usher says the same as beginning)

If you give give the first dance to me
I'm gon' cherish every moment
Cuz it only happens once once in a lifetime

Cross Country!!

2010-02-05T18:33:00.000-08:00

Today,

My school is having cross country

but i kinda ditched it so

i could be at home.

Since i ditched school

to be at home.

I came on the computer.

When i was on the com

I started listening to a song

which real struck me.

"I felt so far away,
From where we used to be,
And now were standing,
And were do we go,
When there's no road,
To get to your heart,
Lets start over again!

So its up to you,
And its up to me,
And we meet in the middle, on our way back down to earth,
Down to earth, (down to earth)
Down to earth,
On our way back down to earth,
Down to earth,
On our way back down to earth,"

this is more or less like

what i feel now...

all i need is a chance to show you

how much love there is in my heart

for you..

Down to earth!!

2010-02-05T18:08:00.000-08:00

ohhh,ohhh,oh
I never thought that it'd be easy,
Cause were both so distant now,
And the walls are closing in on us and were wondering how,
No one has a solid answer,
But were just walking in the dark,
And you can see the look on my face, it just tears me apart.

So we fight, (so we fight)
Through the hurt, (through the hurt)
And we cry and cry and cry and cry,
And we live, (and we live)
And we learn, (and we learn)
And we try and try and try and try!

So its up to you,
And it's up to me,
That we meet in the middle, on our way back down to earth,
Down to earth, down to earth, down to earth
On our way back down to earth,
Back down to earth, back down to earth, back down to earth,
back down to earth, back down to earth, back down to earth,
back down to earth, back down to earth

Momma, you were always somewhere,
And Daddy, I live out of town,
So tell me how could I ever be, normal somehow?
You tell me this is for the best,
So tell me why am I in tears?
Whoa, so far away and now I just need you here,

So we fight, (so we fight)
Through the hurt, (through the hurt)
And we cry and cry and cry and cry,
And we live, (and we live)
And we learn, (and we learn)
And we try and try and try and try!

So its up to you,
And its up to me,
And we meet in the middle, on our way back down to earth,
Down to earth, down to earth, down to earth

On our way back down to earth, (on our way back down to earth)
Back down to earth, back down to earth, back down to earth,
back down to earth, back down to earth, back down to earth,
back down to earth, back down to earth

I felt so far away,
From where we used to be,
And now were standing,
And were do we go,
When there's no road,
To get to your heart,
Lets start over again!

So its up to you,
And its up to me,
And we meet in the middle, on our way back down to earth,
Down to earth, (down to earth)
Down to earth,
On our way back down to earth,

I never thought that it'd be easy,
Cause were both so distant now,
And the walls are closing in on us and were wondering how?

Favorite Girl!!

2010-02-05T02:58:00.001-08:00

Oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh

I’ve always known you were the best
The coolest girl I know, So prettier than
All the rest the star of all the show.
So many times I wish you could be the one for me
I never knew you’d be like this girl, what you do
To me.

Your who I’m thinking of
Girl you’re my runner up no matter what, your
Always number one, My prized possesion, one and
Only, adore you girl I want you. The one I can't
Live without, that’s you, that’s you.
You’re my precious little lady, the one that
Make’s me crazy, Of all the girls I’ve ever
Known , It’s you, it’s you.
My favorite, my favorite, my favorite, my
Favorite girl, my favorite girl,
Your always goin out your way to impress
These mr.wrongs, I never knew you’d
Get like this I’ll take you as you are,
You always said believe in love, it’s a dream
That can’t be real, never thought of fairytales
I’ll show you how it feels. Your who I’m
Thinking of, girl you're my runner up,
No matter what your always number one.
My prized possesion one and only, adore ya
Girl I want you, of all the girls I’ve ever
Known it’s you, it's you, you’re my precious
Little lady, the one that makes me crazy of all the girls I’ve ever known it’s you, it’s you.
My favorite, my favorite, my favorite, my
Favorite girl, my favorite girl.

You take my breathe away, with every thing
You say. I just wanna be with you my baby,
My baby, ohhh. My miss don’t play no games,
Treats you no other way, that you deserve,
Cause you’re the girl of my dreams.

My prize position one and only, adore you
Girl I want you, the one I can’t live
Without, that’s you, that’s you.
You’re my precious little lady, the one that
Makes me crazy of all the girls I’ve ever
Known it’s you, it’s you, ohhhh
I want you ohhh it’s you, it’s you.
My favorite, my favorite, my favorite, my
Favorite girl, my favorite girl.

It’s you..

Dedicated to the

number one girl in my heart,

the girl in my dreams,

the one that makes me crazy,

My Favorite girl..

2010-02-03T23:54:00.000-08:00

PLEASE!!!!

Do not comment my cbox

with the name anonymous..

i don't bite you know..

but if you do put anonymous,

i'll get pissed off easily..

So please!!!!

PUT YOUR REAL NAMES!!!!!

Lie's !!!!!!!!

2010-02-02T23:54:00.000-08:00

Today,

i told my dad a lie.. =(

since there was a dumb ass ceramah about

perjanjian for PMR shit

i was like why in the world must i go for it??

so in the morning i told my dad

"Dad, can i study at home coz, there is a ceramah thats doesn't involve exams"

my dad said i could

until my mum told my dad

the ceramah was about how to succeed in PMR..

i was like WTH??

the motivation bengkel crap

doesn't start so early in the year

and my mum was frustrated at me

and she did that stupid small kid frustration thingy

when they want you to do something and they don't get it..

So when i dad heard my mum telling me i was

the "motivation bengkel for PMR"

my dad forced me to go to school..

ARGHH!!

So at school i had to stay for the ceramah thing.

so since it was over i decided to lie to my dad to pick me up from school,

i told him my foot was swollen

and he believed me and pick me up from school..

so in the car he gave me a lecture about

i'm not studying enough and stuff

which is like so true..

so i guess this is the end..

we'll meet again sometime in a distant future.. =D

I can't continue..

2010-01-31T19:05:00.000-08:00

I thought i could forget you,

I thought i could live without you,

I thought i wouldn't miss you

as much as i thought i would,

I thought i wouldn't cry over you as much as

i did before.

And now,

i can't forget you,

i can't live without you,

I cant stop missing you

and i can't stop tearing over you..

You make me a better person when i am with you.

You make me smile whenever i am next to you.

You make me smile by seeing your face lite up

whenever you smile.

You make me laugh whenever i see you laughing that

cute laugh.

And you make me love you

more and more

every time i talk to you..

You will never be forgotten from my mind,

lost in my heart,

Nor,

will be hated..

For you make me whole

whenever

I hear your voice,

hear your laugh,

see your smile,

feel your warm hug,

and feel your presence near me..

for that

I LOVE YOU

with all my heart..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACLYN WONG!!!!

2010-01-31T06:02:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

JACLYN!!!

Today was an awesome day..

And

i dont regret wasting every cent i had on Chilies, Baskin and Robins and bowling..

You deserved everything we gave you

no matter how big or small,

you deserved it

for being an awesome friend to all of the form 3's,

and

sorry for like kinda scolding you in a way,

but it was your Birthday

and you aren't suppose to spend your own money on your birthday..

its like a rule..

And today was the best time that i have ever had in a long time..

spending time with you beats going overseas

for holidays man..

I hope we made your day of the best memories in your life..

just cut out the me kinda scolding you in a way..

May God bless his wonderful creation

today with your hearts desire.

May God help you with your decision's in life.

Love you Sis!!

Have a great year with hard work

and determination

to get straight A's for your PMR..

take care,

my dearest sister,

Love Ya!!!

finally got over it!!!

2010-01-25T07:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday,

i didn't have enough time

to think of you at night..

So Today,

since there wasn't any P.Moral exam

i had two hours

of my free time..

During those two hours..

I opened my drawing book

and it had a drawing of

your name

and at the bottom said

"after two years of our friendship, I still haven't given up on it"

It got me thinking

why i wrote it in the first place..

So while i had free time,
i did a poem on
the reason's of why i loved you
and the reason's
I didn't love you.
but i could only think of 3 reasons why i shouldn't
Love you
and
The reasons why i should love you
were uncountable.

and after i wrote that poem,
i drew a drawing of
my name and your name
and a heart in the middle of both of it..

that was my last drawing of both our names together..

Apology..

2010-01-24T06:08:00.000-08:00

If you know i was talking about you

I'm sorry,

It is a way for me to release stress without violence involved..

I wanna turn my life around

for the better..

but i wont be able too,

because the best memories of my life

are in my brain together with the worst year of high school..

and those memories pulled me through

tough times..

but it has also caused me to be this way now..

But the memory that i have with you in it

will always be with me no matter how hard i try to

get rid of it..

I will always having feelings for you

no matter how hard I try to forget you..

One fact you should know is,

I called you my sis,

because i wanted to see how long

i could last calling you my sis,

and it wasn't easy calling you my sis

when i had a heart full of love just for God and you..

Honestly,

I miss the time we would sms each other

everyday of the year.

I miss the time we would

ask each other about school

and come up with lame stories.

I miss the question game

i played with you on MSN..

And I miss the time i could hang out

with you alone,

and i miss you telling me

"those kids are so cute"

i miss those awkward silence in our conversation

on the phone..

i miss every memory i cherish since the day

i met you..

I will cherish it till

the day i meet my creator

in heaven..

And if it is Gods plan

we will meet one another again

in a distant future

and will start a new friendship.

If we are both still single

and

If there is a spark between us until then,

I will propose to you

on one knee in front of a huge

crowd or at a switchfoot concert

or even in another

country

without any delay..

This is my promise to you...

Remember this promise..

who knows maybe we will

get married

and have "cute" children??

Only God knows..

=)

Today,
i cried for you,
with tears rolling down from my eyes
to my cheeks
and dripping onto my guitar..
Today,
i listened to a song which made
forgetting you easier..
Today,
I realized i miss you
too much
to forget you.
Today,
I have no choice but to live without you...

One day,
i might regret forgetting you
but it will also be the best solution
to my problems..
i might cry myself to sleep tonight,
but hopefully God will help me with this problem..

I have faith in his awesome power..

It's not gonna happen..

2010-01-24T01:18:00.000-08:00

A few days ago,

I wanted to play a song for you on your birthday

and i spent two hours a day at least,

learning how to play that song for you.

and now,

since i started my journey on forgetting you,

you will never get to hear me play the song for you.

Neither will you ever hear my voice singing it for you.

I was gonna wish you happy birthday,

and maybe give you a birthday

hug.

But now,

you'll never get to feel my warm hugs.

Neither will you ever see me smiling at you again

Nor will you ever hear me wishing you happy birthday

ever again,

And this year,

after a long time i will finally listen to you

and

will not give you any gifts

till the day you become my friend

once again..

you have been deleted from

my phone,

you will be forgotten

from my mind,

and

you will be lost in my heart.

from this very second..

I loose a gift..

2010-01-23T23:48:00.000-08:00

Today,

i loose a best friend

whom

i hold very dear to my heart..

This hour,

I'm writing song's

to forget our memories together..

This minute,

I'm playing the last song

that reminds me of you..

This second,

I have lost my LOVE
for you..

=(

---------------------------------------------------------------------

Today,
i've cried after seeing your name
on a link in one of the blogs.
This hour,
i realized i have made the right
decision of forgetting you.
This minute,
you will be erased from my life.
This second,
I have no space in my heart
to be hurt again..

This is freaking ridiculous..

2010-01-23T20:39:00.000-08:00

Today,

Church reminded me

of you.

Today,

i was expecting you to show up,

but you didn't.

A part of wants to see you,

And the other

part doesn't want anything to do with you..

Even if i stayed back

for a few minutes reminded me

of the times i saw you

in service from

the window i peep through to see

your beautiful face smiling..

I can't bare this pain anymore...

i would rather

jump of a 10 story building,

drown in the sea

or even

get eaten by a shark..

anything is way better than the pain you make me

feel inside..

i cant promise you

i wont hate you,

but

i will definitely try

to avoid seeing you

and hearing your voice..

Hearing your name,

makes me wanna cry

over and over again.

because of the times

i had with you through out the last two months,

made me fall in love with you even more

than the amount of love i already have for you..

you "were" the one person

who could make me smile by just being next to you..

you "were" the one person

who could make me laugh my guts out

just by seeing you laugh..

you "were" the one person,

who could make me cry

night and day.

and now,

Screw me

for giving you my heart,

and you broke it

so now i have no feelings in my heart..

I hope one day,

I'll meet someone

who will never hurt me the way you do,

make me cry the way you do,

and smash my heart the way you do..

You "were" everything

i wanted in a girl.

Now,

my expectation list

is still standing

but you will never gonna be

the one i fall in love with again..

The damage you did to my heart,

cannot be healed by another girl,

but only by GOD!!!

It Broke!!!

2010-01-23T08:31:00.000-08:00

My heart broke into
a million tiny pieces
because of you.

I cried one too many tears
for you.

i don't regret meeting you
but
i do regret falling in
LOVE with you..

you made me a better person
by just staying as my friend.
but by just staying friends
isn't what i had in mind.

I wanted to be with you,
and share a life time
worth of memories..
but that is never gonna happen..

you have been
with been with guys
that broke your heart,
and it broke my heart
because you didn't trust me enough
to tell me about it,
and to know those guys broke your heart,
it made me mad just to think of it..

when i asked you

"did you hook up with this guy??"

you told me that he was only a crush,
which was a total lie!!!

I have always been honest
with you,
and you do this to me??

now the only thing i can say is
Have a great life without me inside it,
because i have been feeling nothing
but pain in my heart for the past few months..

Two questions before i start forgetting you..
1.Did you really appreciate everything i gave you
when you say you did??
2. Would it have made a difference if i had made a move
two years ago??

food for thought..

Today!!

2010-01-23T05:30:00.000-08:00

Today,

I realized that i will never have you.

Today,

I made a choice to set you free.

Today,

my heart breaks into a million tiny pieces

for you.

So from today

onwards,

I wont miss you,

I wont need you,

I wont cry over you,

and

I wont LOVE you.

One day,

You will miss me

like how

I missed you.

You will need me

like how

I needed you.

You will cry over me

like how

I cried over you

And

Sherlock Holmes!!!

2010-01-23T04:52:00.000-08:00

Sherlock Holmes!

the first movie of this year i watched..

and it is rather

how do you call it

urm...

"Interesting, Funny, and most of all Awesome"

It is definitely a must watch movie on my list...

In Your Face People!!!!

2010-01-22T01:08:00.000-08:00

That's Right People

"In your FACE"

i told you i would be able to stop facebook for a week...

but it hasn't been a week yet

but still

"In your FACE"

HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!

only to the people who doubted me like

Jedida....

Hrmmm....

22.1.2010 : EXAM!!!!

2010-01-21T21:52:00.000-08:00

Yeah people,

i had exams today..

It started yesterday,

Form 1 Science is freaking easy man..

hope i can get A,

and today was
Science and English..

Two of my favorite subjects..

hehe,

today was awesome because it was freaking hilarious...

one of my class mate's

was doing the Exam,

and suddenly he slept for an hour or so,

then at 12.25

we were suppose to pass up the answer sheet's

and at the same time he woke up,

when i looked at his answer sheet

it was BLANK!!!!!

i started LMFAO wei,

seriously,

it was freaking funny,

his face expression was priceless man...

i just had to blog about it...

And for those who are having exams this week and next week

GOOD LUCK!!!!

for those who aren't

Good Luck as well for your up coming exams...

Help once again!!!!

2010-01-20T06:48:00.000-08:00

Dang man,

I really feel like emo-ing now because i'm like

deciding whether i should

go for it or just maintain whatever is going on??

I was having a conversation with my pet sis the other day

and a part of the conversation made me extremely happy..

the conversation was like this

"Urm, can i ask you for your opinion with this problem??"

"Sure, no problem.. =D"

"okay, you know my problem right?? so if i was going to make a move on it, would it be okay with you??"

"Urm, i don't know what to tell you, but i hope the answer will be yes =D"

"Hahaha, thanks"

"No problem, happy to help =)"

The conversation before the one on top..

"So should i go for it or forget about the one and move on??"

"Either which will be good for you.. =)"

this conversation was a day before the conversation above this one..

and it really made my day,

to know that someone supports me in a life changing decision..

and i have no idea on what i should do now...

I have an exam tomorrow and i'm still struggling with this pain in the butt problem..

I need to have the guts to face it but the things is,

its tearing me up from the inside out..

i hate this feeling,

why did i ever need to get myself sunken in so deep into this problem,

for two years man..

ARGHHHH!!!!!!

I HATE THIS!!!!

it's like trying to get rid of one of my organs without suffering,

its like removing your heart and making you pump your own blood,

its like an infinite life without someone to share it with..

We all need a person in our life to make us whole,

no one is best off with half their souls..

Of course God fills up our soul, mind and body

but there are times you will feel that loving someone will fill your soul even more then

how much God has filled it..

I'm sorry to say that i am also one of those people..

God made women to be with a man,

God made men to be with a woman..

God has a made a specific person for a different person,

He has planned out everything a few millennium's before anyone or anything was even created..

So I will surrender this up to God,

and as my dad will say

"Do your best and surrender to God, for he will do the rest"

PS:
Mostly all of you won't understand the Conversation

but only God and only one of my pet sis who knows

about the Conversation...

2nd Saturday of the Year!!!!

2010-01-15T22:10:00.000-08:00

So today is the second Saturday of the year,

i just finish swimming for an hour...

my goal for this year is to get 6 packs and loose my belly fats

because it isn't cool to have belly fats..

=D especially for guys..

and since someone's birthday is coming up soon

i thought i would learn how to play a song for that someone..

it seriously relates to most the form 3 girls of 2010..

only those who have been together with a guy la..

and to others it might just be a regular song..

So hopefully i can master the song before that someones birthday...

And surprisingly my day is going pretty well so far

and hopefully it will stay that way...

10th day of school!!

2010-01-14T22:17:00.000-08:00

Today, was a really weird day for me at first

because yesterday i took some money from some girls not steal but took

as in they gave it to me for my help with their English assignment..

and today, since i felt sinful yesterday i gave it back to them,

and when i gave it back they said it was okay for me to keep it

and i was like still insisting on giving it back to them..

when i gave the money back to them

i didn't felt bad nor good..

i was really weird..

but after the time past by i felt okay with it

so i continued with the rest of my day..

And i didn't get scolding from the teacher

woohhoooo!!!!

I'm very proud of my self.. =D

How guys like me think... =)

2010-01-14T01:24:00.000-08:00

This is mostly how i am..

if you have read this you will know me a bit more..

and don't mind the skip numbers okay
i erased it because it has no relevance to how i am
and it's not christian like..

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" are two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile, it’s usually more important than the body.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to; if a guy knows a girl likes him but doesn’t like her… he still wants to be the only guy she talks to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend, unless it’s negative, then it’s cool

11. Guys get jealous very easily, even if they don’t show it.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!... ugh... nevermind..." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like. If a guy seems cool around girls, just see how he acts in front of the girl he really likes.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

(SOME guys, not all..)

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves if you just ask.

18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

(i have no idea what this means)

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice unless he asks for it.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. Poking, blocking your way and random high 5’s are tell tell signs.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything if you don’t tell them not to.

(not all)

24. Guys use words like buff or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you, if he uses it to describe other girls, he probably just wants to sound sweet in front of you, and therefore likes you.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys love it when girls wear their clothes (jacket, hat, etc) especially if it’s a girl they like, they will often let them wear it in unreasonable circumstances…like the pouring rain.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible, if you like a guy, just tell him, they’ll usually be flattered. If there is something wrong with your relationship, just tell him, if hes a nice guy he’ll do his best to fix the problem.

(very true)

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience, your NEVER going to meet Mr. Darcy.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and talk to me."

37. Guys don't really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than 3 seconds, he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

(its really embarrassing if a girl can punch hard than we can)

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day. `now thats something i dont hear everyday ;p

(a guy will do anything except give his left nut, trust me)

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

51. Not all guys are dickheads. Just because ONE is doesnt mean he represents ALL of us. Quit assuming.

52. We don't like girls who are too skinny.

54. Always make sure you know what kind of stuff you're getting into before making out with a guy...like whether it's a one time deal or not...

55. Believe it or not shy guys are the easiest to talk to, it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticabley tell them about yours.

57. When a guy doesn’t touch you flirtily alot, but smiles at you a lot and makes eye contact a lot, its probably because he likes you and feels weird about touching you…but really wants to.

58. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

59. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it... it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

60. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

61. If a guy tells you to dump your boyfriend, he's being a twat, if he tells you that there is the possibility of finding someone else (HIM) if you do dump him, he probably likes you and just wants to see you happy.

62. No matter how much they complain (if they do), guys actually like it when girls lean on them.

65. If a guy acts like a dick sometimes and doesnt trust you, it might be because he has been badly hurt in the past and is afraid to open up again.

66. Just because a guy isn't holding/kissing you, doesnt mean he doesn't want to, you might just need to initiate it.

67. All guys want to make you happy (unless they're pricks), some just don't know how...so help them out.

68. Most guys just naturally prefer a girl with a bit of curve.

69. Guys are just as self conscious and insecure as girls, ;we also fear rejection, the guy who really likes you is the one who will never dare say so.

70. Boys liked to be talked to. A guy will feel more comfortable around a girl if the girl starts talking to him.

71. The way a girl moves her body can easily be much sexier than anything she says or does.

72. Girls: when you slow down with your boyfriend, make sure you give a damn good reason or we feel like its our fault because we can't comprehend that you really just want to slow down.

73. Every guy has a 'neeky' side of him. Whether it be playin games, watching movies, or playing football, but don't make fun of him if you don't like it, unless it's something you both find funny, otherwise just try and learn to like it. Don't try to change him. If he's constantly ignoring you for that thing, tell him, he'll probably try and do it less.

74. Guys will always check out other girls, even if we make it less obvious when we're around you, it does not mean we're considering leaving you for the girl on the bus. It just comes to us without thinking, so don't freak out when a guy looks at another girl. It's just nature, and we know you were oggling at the cute guy that just walked passed. And hey, guys can have female friends just like girls can have male friends, just because he gets a text from a girl does not mean he is cheating on you. But if this does make things awkward, talk about it.

75. NEVER EVER kick a guy in the balls...seriously. Not even in a fight (play or real) or argument, you can't imagine how much that hurts (don't bring up giving birth because you know it's different). The slightest kick can often have an excruciating delayed reaction...so yeah...just don't do it...please.

76. When a guy is talkin to a girl, his gut instinct is to make her laugh. Whether he is good at this or not, he will try. As a result boys can sometimes appear immature or weird when you first meet them, but they're probably just nervous so give them time and get to know them.

77. At some point a guy will try to play fight with you. There are two reasons for this:

a) Guys like to fight and show you how strong they are.

b) It gives them an excuse to touch you.

my answer: Not true. for me of course..

79. Guys dont like girls who don't make an effort. If he travels four hours just to see you for three, appreciate it and don't admit you wouldn't do the same, half the time we wouldn't expect you to anyway!

80. Guys have standards for what type of girl they want to have. Every girl is the perfect girl for somebody.

81. Guys don't like it when girls amplify things. It's very annoying.

82. Even the coolest guys, worry a lot about how they come across, they are probably trying very hard to seem so cool. So don't undermine or mock a guy you like or are friends with, he might not burst into tears but it does not do wonders for his self-esteem. And if you do take the piss, make it fairly clear your joking, it will let the guy know you dont dislike him, you have a sense of humour, and its ok for him to have a come back.

83. If a guy is completely, 100% honest with you about things he's not to sure/proud of, be grateful, because it can be pretty rare.

86. Guys will always be nervous about giving girls presents they like, no matter how close to or comfortable they are around the girl. Your opinion is just too important to him.

88. Guys may not know how to handle a relationship, we admit, we're not the greatest nor the smartest at doing things right. But girls are definitely not any better, so please don't argue with us and make it seem like you know how things are supposed to be and your ways are right. It may seem logical, but frankly, it always isn't.

89. Guys love anything you wear. Really. Don't continuously ask them how you look every time you wear something.

90. THE NUMBER ONE RULE: Don't rub the lamp if you don't want the genie to come out

9th day of school..

2010-01-13T23:04:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, was a weird and lazy day for me..

I was lazy and i didn't finish my homework..

and it was a weird day because i was chatting with my best friend

and she told me she liked me

and it was at least two months an a half after i proposed to her.. (meaning GF not wife)

and i totally forgot i ever did it until she brought the topic up..

and because she knew almost everything about me

i couldn't start lying to her now

so i told her i still had feeling for my form 1 crush.. ( form 1 crush when i was form 1 and she is my age)

and she told me she was kinda jealous..

and i kept on apologizing about everything..

and she at a point asked me to stop apologizing

but the great part of our friendship is

whatever we do to each other we are still friends

no matter what happens..

that is something i will always cherish in our friendship..

TODAY!!

today was just plane fun

because......

since my English teacher gave us an assignment to do

and half the class didn't do it..

so some of the girls asked me for my help

and me being normal stingy me

i asked them to pay for my help..

so they paid me and i help them with their assignment..

i like money a lot simply because i want a lot of stuff..

and after they paid me i felt really really happy for a moment or two

but after those few moments pasted i began to feel sinful

because i remembered that someone told me that

"Giving is a blessing and it will bring you long lasting happiness"

so i really felt sinful

now i don't know what to do with the money

should i keep it or should i return it???

but I'm considering to return the money..

lets see how it goes shall we??

New Private Blog..

2010-01-08T09:45:00.000-08:00

Impacting Lives!!

http://impactlives2010.blogspot.com/

I got the idea of this new blog

from

Janice Khaw..

this blog is going to be privated as well,

Due to the "Allah" thingy..

send in your name and emails if you want to read it only..
if you aren't, don't bother wasting your time..

Third and Forth day of SCHOOL..

2010-01-06T23:34:00.000-08:00

THIRD DAY OF SCHOOL!!

urm.... nothing much happened really..

I got a few warnings from the teachers hear and there,

for talking in class, hanging out at the motorcycle parking area, looking outside the window while teacher was talking and many other stupid reasons..

and what i say is true there is no year in school i will go through without a single warning...

I hope i do but it depends on my behavior as well..

So i hope i might be able to stay out of trouble..

FOURTH DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!

Today, i got punished for shaking my head and smiling in disbelief at teacher and not bringing my text book to school..

the punishment was to stand up for the whole session

BUT!!!!

teacher was kind enough to let me sit down after 5 minutes of standing..

Then for shaking my head and smiling at teacher in disbelief,

I had to stand up again...

than since i had to do my work i just sat down and continued my work..

when the teacher saw me sitting down after she has told me to stand up,

she didn't say a word...

Cool right?? =D

hehe..

I really need to change schools to be more discipline...

but the only place where I'm really discipline is church...

its like I'm living a double life..

but i hope those two lives I'm living now will unite and my life

will revolve around GOD...

Second Day Of SCHOOL!!!

2010-01-05T06:02:00.000-08:00

YEAH man,

i got through the second day without getting in trouble for

some dumb fight, playing in class and TALKING in class..

hehe..

OH YESS!! my old principle moved to another school in Sentul.

WOOHOO!!

So now the new principle looks nicer than the old one..

my old principle looked like a person who went for plastic surgery over and over again..

Her face freaked me out..

And I'm happy to hear that she moved so was the other teachers..

HEHEHE =D

She talked to much during the Monday assembly

most of the students fell a sleep while she was talking in front..

so i'm happy to announce that there is no more

LONG TALKS DURING ASSEMBLY!!!

WoOhOo!!

(jumping in my seat right now)

hehe..

So hopefully i'll stop being a nuisance in school..

And start being a messenger of the good news for GOD..

I love being close to God..

At least i have someone to talk to when I'm all alone in my room..

he knows everything i have done in my life so there is nothing to hide from him..

so since this is my PMR year..

i wont be able to go on facebook as often as i use to during the holidays

that also includes blog,

so for those who actually read my blog

be patient okay..

see ya soon..

First Day of SCHOOL!!!

2010-01-03T23:32:00.000-08:00

My First day was kinda awesome and really boring..

It was boring because my best friend from form 1 came back to my school after moving to sri gombak for the whole of form 2.

and it was really boring because it was the first day of school

and there was nothing to do..

I kinda hated class a bit just because the people (gangster/bullies) i tried not to follow and yet end up following ended up in my class..

And i wanted my best friend to come in my class

but she ended up going to the next class..

it kinda saddened me because i had so much to tell her and i knew her since i was 8 years old..

you guys knew i was emo-ing in church yesterday right??

but when i got the news she was coming back to my school i felt like jumping off the chair and jumping for joy..

but after i forgot about that message she sent me

i went into emo mode again..

I smiled when i saw her in school today

but when i stepped into my class i went straight into emo mode

because the feeling in my heart is to strong to push away,

the only being that is able to move is GOD..

but i haven't gotten any news from him yet so I'm waiting for it..

After school i got back home and got on the com and check some blogs,

when i got to Jaclyn's and i read the post she had wrote,

I FROZE in shock and in ANGER,

The girl that forgave me for stepping on her leg in the conference,

And the girl i had 2 YEARS of feelings for,

got in trouble in school for some dumb reason,

i couldn't believe my eye's..

The girl which was on fire for god in mission's trip,

The girl that worship her all for GOD in conference,

And the girl who took the initiative to ask me why i was emo-ing,

GOT IN TROUBLE??

I'm sorry I'm pushing this post a little too far

but it's because i care a whole lot for you to let you slip into bad habits..

So please do me a favor,

In fact do your self a favor,

Do not turn out to be one of those girls who will ruin their lives

due to loosing your heart to boys who breaks hearts over and over again..

ITS NOT WORTH IT!!

God will show you who is right for you and who's not..

I will pray for you everyday if i have to..

I know you're a very intelligent girl

so for your sake, PLEASE make decisions wisely..

I'm always here if you need advice, comfort and even a shoulder to cry on..

I love you too much to see you hurting and upset..

so please let me help you ok..

School!!!!!!

2010-01-03T06:40:00.000-08:00

SCHOOL is REOPENING!!!

i can't believe that time flew extremely fast.

The first minute your hating the beginning of school

and the next minute your most fantastically AWESOME year has ended..

Last year has been a knock on the head for me.

I finally woke up from my selfish life style

which when i look back,

that was the one life style i hated the most and i tried to avoid it as much as possible.

But eventually i got so caught up with my Non-Christian school friends

and started to follow their ways instead of Gods ways..

I seriously regret living my selfish life style without The holy Spirit in it,

but i never regret meeting the true friends i met while i lived my selfish life style,

and thats one of my best achievements ever

and i hope to beat that achievement by living my life unselfishly and with The Holy Spirit in me..

i got to know new friends and got closer to some old friends as well

like:

Jaclyn Wong =)
Jocelyn Lian =)
Sek Hao
Gabriel Lee
Basil Cha
Janice Khaw
Melissa PYW
Justin Hiew
Fish Jia-liang
Jedida Ravindran

And many more Awesome people..

I hope 2010 will be the year worth remembering for life,

I hope I'll get to meet new friends and reunite with old one's as well.

God has done greater thing in me,

So now its my turn to do greater things at home, school and everywhere i go..

I love my new life

I never want to go back to my old life

not now not ever,

because now i see it had gotten me in trouble so many times

that i use to fight with people for no particular reason.

I hope i can maintain this new lifestyle that God has changed for me.

I LOVE YOU GOD!!

Your the only GOD i will ever bow down to,

for you have sent your son to earth and sacrificed him for our sins.

For that i am humbly grateful..

I will never forsake you nor renounce my faith in you,

even though there is a gun pointed at my head or my parents head..

I WILL NEVER EVER RENOUNCE MY FAITH IN YOU!!!

I'm Smiling.. =)

2010-01-02T22:38:00.000-08:00

THANKS you guys..

I had a lot of fun today..

Most of all i enjoyed sabotaging Justin..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE..

sorry about the toothpaste though,

but it seriously made my day.

I'm smiling right now.. HAHA..

A special Thanks to Daphne and Jocelyn

for coming up to me and hugging me.. =)

for Sek hao and Janice sorry to say but you guys failed to make me smile on the inside.

Florence!! thanks for the knocking my head,

it really help me not emo. NOT!!

Anyways, cant forget the reason i am emo

but honestly, i need to forget it before PMR.

It will distract me from my studies and i cant risk that..

So after today don't expect me to update my blog as often as i use to..

because of my studies and stuff =(

hope to have a great time this year despite PMR and what not..

So see ya..

EMO go away..

2010-01-01T08:22:00.000-08:00

Guys you gotta help me with this..
This Sunday, please cheer me up as much as possible
because i need it to last a really long time
for me to forget emo-ing and the reason i am emo-ing.
Especially the Form 3's of 2010,
its your duty to make me happy as long as possible okay..
If you guys don't you guys aren't going to see a smile on my face for a really long time..
so please put on a ginormous smile on my face..
I love you guys a whole lot so please don't loose me to the emo side
which I'm on right now..
and if you try to tickle me in wont help one bit
because tickling me will just piss me off,
so i highly suggest not to..
PLEASE surprise me with everything you've got..

NEW YEARS!!!!

2009-12-31T11:05:00.000-08:00

New Years Poem..
Don't laugh!!!

Time has come and gone,
Time has been used and wasted,
Time that we shared is the best time of all..

Memories has been collected,
memories has made me happy and sad,
memories we had together hopefully will never die..

Love has been shared all around,
Love has broken heart and mend some hearts too,
Love is one thing that makes us strong..

2010!!
HERE I COME!!
Because GOD is gonna do greater things through me..
So STUDIES here i come..
PMR stress.. ARGHHH!!!!!!!
but still with GOD anything is possible..

GOD please help me with my studies,
give me confidence, discipline and concentration in whatever i do..
=)

..............

2009-12-30T21:00:00.000-08:00

HAPPY THANKSGIVING
&
A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
hoped you have enjoyed your last few days of the year more than me
because i haven't enjoyed it at all..
Hopefully tonight will change.. =D

STOP EMO-ING!!!

2009-12-30T07:23:00.000-08:00

I Want to Stop Being Emo
But I can't
because
This pain inside of me isn't going away
and
I don't think it ever will..
And talking to as many people imaginable about this problem
wont solve a thing.
Now all i can do i look up at smile for my father in heaven is up there looking after me for the highest of heights.
And hopefully he will answer my prayers soon
or not I'm going to be wrack when i go back to school.
*God hear my cry for help*
=(

New Year's Resolution..

2009-12-29T01:44:00.000-08:00

MY NEW YEARS RESOLUTION

1. Grow Stronger in the LORD!!
2.Stop facebook-ing.
3.Study as harder than ever.
4. Get AWESOME grades from exams.
5. Stop myself from going to CG outings.
6. Be more active in church.
7. Make an impact in school.
8. FINISH READING THE BIBLE!!
9. Stop cursing.
10. THE END!! =D

almost forgot..
11. Don't fall in love with a girl until end of FORM 5..
=D

HELP!!!

2009-12-28T06:38:00.000-08:00

GOD!!!
hear my cry out for help..
PLEASE take away my broken heart and replace it with a new one
because i cant stand this pain inside me any longer.
It feels like my head is going to explode.
I cant stand it anymore.
PLEASE GOD!!!
i cry out to you in need of your help.
if you cant replace my heart.
PLEASE TAKE AWAY!!! this horrible pain in my heart
its eating me from the inside out..
PLEASE!!!

Do Not Comment About This Post!!!!!!!!
if you are curious about why i wrote this,
ask me face to face..

The Best Christmas Photo.. =D

2009-12-24T22:21:00.000-08:00

Thanks Jaclyn for spending a few moments to take this Awesome pic with me..
I really Appreciate it..
=D
Johanan destroyed the picture ..
im gonna blur out the background soon.. hehe =D

2009-12-24T21:59:00.001-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS
&
A
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
2009
<3

My best year ever..
I hope next year will be better..

Awesome Songs..

2009-12-23T21:08:00.000-08:00

Tear down the Walls: Hillsong United

Yahweh: Hillsong United

Hello Hurricane: Switchfoot.

Christmas Wish List...

2009-12-22T17:20:00.000-08:00

We All Have Our Own Wishes Right??
So This Is Mine.. =D

1. A New I MAC..

2. A Whole Entire Day Out with Friends..

3. God To change my life and help me maintain it..

4. A lot of Presents.. Hehe =D

5. A Lot Of Money.. =D

6. Electric Guitar

7. Transport to Jaclyn's house for Christmas.. =D
i really want to go.. arghh!!!

Jaclyn is on the right.. =D
look, she is blushing.. hehe

Spoon Killer!!! haha

2009-12-21T22:52:00.000-08:00

Live.Rev.Amp 2009

2009-12-20T18:14:00.001-08:00

I just came back from the Yc Conference,
I was mind-blowing awesome-ness!!!!! ,
I miss the form 2 group already.. Arghh!!
I wish i could have more time to hang out with you guys..
you guys are such a blessing to me..
I love you guys so much man..
may god bless you always and forever!!
and finally after a really long pathetic point in my life
i found the courage to talk to Jaclyn without being shy
its all because of Gods grace
i managed to put away my shy-ness and step out of my comfort zone..
so hopefully i'll get a chance to go for another life changing camp or mission trip
because Gods presence is always felt when ur outside your comfort zone.
=D

MissionTrip

2009-11-26T21:30:00.000-08:00

HI,
so i just got back from a mission trip in Slim river, Perak..
and the guys had a talk about our feeling about girls..
and i have to say alot of things the leaders said touch me deeply..
i was like almost crying..
because, it mostly related to me in a sense
that urm, having a girlfriend now will add on too problems you already have, we have to learn to respect girls, we should become leaders and not put the burden on girls
and a other few stories the guys swore to keep a secret..
but none the less it really touch me drastically..
so i just pray that i will change my habits
and start better habits soon.. =D

2009-11-17T17:34:00.000-08:00

IS BACK IN KL

.....

2009-11-15T19:51:00.000-08:00

I'm in London..

and freezing to death...

arghh!!

.........

2009-11-13T12:51:00.000-08:00

I'm on my way to London!!!!!!
Awesome!!!
Yahooo!!!!

EXAMS OVER!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-12T05:14:00.000-08:00

WOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!
I Love it when Exams are over..
So tomorrow im going to Time Square
and skipping school.. =)
On Saturday im going to LONDON!!!
Woah!!
I pray to GOD i wont loss my leg due to tiredness
arghh..
my dad is gonna make me walk until i drop..

Genting: Day 2

2009-10-26T19:49:00.000-07:00

Day 2:
so today i went to the gym for the first time in my life,
and i went alone..
the gym was called firstworld fitness center..
so i only went on the treadmill, and the exercise bicycle..
i jogged 7km & i cycled 10km..
and i lost 3 kg..
thats not much but still i lost weight..
awesome!!!..
so after the gym i took a shower in the locker room..
the locker room had a sauna, and a steam room..
i dont know whether its the same or not but i looked like it
so yeah..
So after my shower i changed and went back to the suite..
when i got up my sis was already playing guitar hero 3..
so i joined in the game and owned her every time..
HAHAHAHA!!!!
so after an hour of guitar hero
we went down to the outdoor theme again just for the Flying Coaster.. =)
and finally i could go on it without closing my eyes..
screaming really releases stress..
so after going on the ride
we went walking around the indoor theme park/mini times square..
we first planned that we were going to the indoor theme park but it looked very kiddy
so we changed plans to go to Snow World..
but when we went to entrance we saw that it was really boring
so we went to the chocolate shop which was next to Snow World
so we just browsed through
and my sister's bought a teddy bear and a box of chocolates..
and then we continued walking around,
then we passed by a shop named burncity..
my sister's went in a looked through thinking they were gonna buy something
but in the end didnt
so we continued our walk and felt hungry so we stopped by a
Chinese looking shop ( it was actually malay )
and ordered "food"
i ordered Fish & Chips,
my mum ordered curry mee,
sisters ordered noodles
(i forgot its name)
so when we finished eating
we went back to the room and rested for awhile..
and i slept.. ZzZzzZ..
when i woke up i told my mum i wanted to go walking around
but i didnt..
i went to the Cyber Cafe which was ridiculously expensive..
rm 15 per hour and rm10 for half an hour..
so no choice la have to pay him rm 10..
so i went on facebook, myspace and others i forgot..
so after an half an hour
my com shut down
and i left..
as i was leaving i saw a guy playing guitar hero 4: world tour..
Guitar Hero 4 has the best rock song ever
which includes Paramore, Goo goo Dolls, and others..
so that dude was playing the soundtrack of transformers 1
which was on Hard
and as you can see by the level he is playing
it is HARD!!
when he finished i left and went back to the room..
as i got to the room i saw my mum cooking dinner
and my sister's watching Pearl Harbor..
so in boredom i watched it with them..
so we watched and watch until we all kinda fell to sleep..